I hate to tell you, but God is not going to change some things about you or your circumstances.
You can pray until you turn blue in the face and God won’t budge, for if He answered your prayer you would cease being who and what you are.
For example, the same “maleness” that causes a man to be attracted to a woman, marry her and love her as Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5:28-29) can also cause him to want another man’s wife and commit adultery (2 Samuel 11).
The same strong maternal love of a woman which causes her to go through the valley of the shadow of death to bring a child into the world and then devote the rest of her life to that child can also cause her to commit a horrible crime like switching her dead baby for another mother’s live baby (1 Kings 3:16-28).
You can’t have your cake and eat it too.
God makes people male or female; with that comes great privileges and possibilities but with that selfsame maleness or femaleness comes great temptations and pitfalls.
You pray for success and when it comes you complain to God about the heavy responsibilities and demands on your time and the unexpected temptations and snares that come with success. What’s God supposed to do? Success always brings with it great responsibilities, demands, and pitfalls (1 Timothy 6:17). There’s only one way for God to solve your problem—take the blessings away; is that what you want?
Bottom line, there are some things we have to do for ourselves. We have to train ourselves; put disciplines and rituals in our lives to act as guard rails. As I recently wrote, we have to drive down stakes of “always” in our lives that we adhere to.
You are going to deal with some temptations and struggles until death–they come with being what and who you are. The sooner you accept that and begin taking responsibilities the sooner you can get on with your life.
It’s not the most spiritual example, but life can be compared to a game of cards. (I thought about using “Life is like a box of chocolates” but decided to go with the cards :)).
God deals you a hand; you can whine about it, beg for different cards or just throw the cards on the table and check out…or, you do have the choice to do the best you can with the cards that have been dealt to you.
When you do that, then God steps in and does what only He can do.
It is what it is and you are what you are. Deal with it and get going on making the best of it that you can. You’ll be amazed at what a little commitment, discipline, and consistency will do. And you will be amazed at how creative God can get at blessing your commitment, discipline and consistency.